Chapter 10
I tried to avoid Lane after school. I thought I could head home before school let
out, but the bell rang just as I was leaving the gym. I hurried down the
sidewalk; however, two blocks away I heard him shout my name.

I walked faster, hoping he would tire, but he didn’t. A block later, he ran up
beside me and grabbed my arm. “Didn’t you...” He took one look at my face and
started crying. He grabbed me around the waist and held me as he asked me
what had happened.

“I’m all right,” I assured him as I pulled away and started down the sidewalk. He
ran up, took my hand and held it tightly.

He looked up at my swollen face. By now, my eye had closed shut. I laughed
and replied,  “I walked into a door.”

“No, you didn’t,” he said as tears once again filled his eyes. “Who did you get
into a fight with?” He crossed his heart and said, “I promise I won’t tell Randy.”

I squeezed his hand and replied, “Mike and I kind of had a little disagreement in

He asked worriedly, “It wasn’t because he called me a runt, was it?”

“No,” I assured him. “He got a little too rough in gym, that’s all.”

“But,” replied Lane. “I thought you guys were friends?”

“Sometimes friends have disagreements,” I responded.

Lane giggled and looked up into my face. “I bet Mike looks worse than you,

“Not really,” I said. “He got me while I was on the ground.”

Lane replied angrily, “Bastard.”

I stopped and put my hands on his shoulders. Bending down so I could look
into his face, I said, “I don’t want to hear you cuss anymore. Got it?” He looked
away and nodded his head. “Good,” I said. “You’re too nice a kid to be cussing.”

He giggled when I muttered, “Bastard,” as we walked away.

When we got home, I went straight to my room. Lane disappeared for a few
minutes, and then he entered my room. He was carrying a plastic bag. He
walked over, sat on the side of bed beside me and pressed it gently against my
swollen eye.

I didn’t move away because the cold felt good. “What is that?” I asked as he
held it to my face.

He grinned and replied, “A pork chop. When I sprunged my wrist last year,
Mommy put something cold from the freezer on it.”

“It feels good,” I murmured as I took it from his hand and lay back on the bed
with it still pressed to my face.

Lane looked worriedly at me. For a second, I expected him to start crying again.
He gently placed his hand on my chest and asked, “You want me to get
anything else?”

“I’m okay, Little Brother,” I assured him. “I’m just going to lay here for awhile
and try to sleep.” He smiled when I reached up and patted his cheek. “Thanks
for the cold pack. My eye feels better already. Now, why don’t you leave me
alone and let me get some sleep.”

I thought he was going to leave when he rose from the bed and turned out the
overhead light. Instead, he walked back over, sat down and toed off his shoes.
He then lay beside me and put his arm around my chest. Soon, both of us were
sound asleep.

We slept for about two hours until someone knocked softly on the door. Lane
mumbled something, and then nestled his body into mine. The door opened,
and the overhead light blinded me.

“Are you boys...” It was Karen. Suddenly, she let out a shriek. “My God, Casey!
What happened to you?”

Lane sat up and wiped the sleep from his eyes as Karen approached the bed.
She asked worriedly again as she looked down at my face, “Were you in a
fight?” She sighed and mumbled softly, “I hope it wasn’t Curtis.”

“It wasn’t, Mommy,” said Lane. “He got in a fight with Mike.”

I looked at him and scowled. “Thanks for keeping a secret,” I mumbled.

Lane scooted closer to me to give his mother room to sit on the bed. “Mike
McConnell? Why on earth would you get in a fight with Mike? He’s such a nice

“He ain’t either,” replied Lane scornfully. “He called me a runt, so Casey got in a
fight with him.”

I attempted to correct him, “I did not get in a fight because he called you a runt,
although I probably should have.”

Karen took the melted bag from me and handed it to Lane. “Honey,” she said
softly, “Why don’t you go get another frozen pork chop for Casey’s eye.” Lane
jumped from the bed, grabbed the plastic bag and hurried from the room.

Karen asked, “You want to tell me why you were in a fight? Is it because he
called Lane a runt?”

“No, Ma’am,” I replied as I swung around on the bed and sat up. “I don’t mean
to be rude, but it’s kind of a personal thing between Mike and me?”

It surprised me when she asked, “Is it because he’s gay?” I sat and looked
dumbfounded at her. I didn’t know how to answer her blunt question.

She laughed slightly, took my hand and squeezed it. “It’s okay, Casey. Mike’s
mother and I are good friends. She told me three years ago when he came out
to the family. By now, I think everyone in the school knows.”

My face reddened when I replied, “I don’t have a problem with him being gay.”
Judging by her reaction, I was beginning to wonder if she really knew that I was
gay. Perhaps, my mother hadn’t said anything to my father. If she did, he may
not have shared it with Karen and the others.

“Then why did you fight him?” She reached up and gently touched my face. “It
looks like it was a nasty fight. Does he look like this, too?”

“No,” I confessed. “I wasn’t able to get in a good punch.”

“Well,” she huffed. “You should learn to defend yourself.”

“I can defend myself,” I laughed. “He just had me pinned to the ground.”

It hurt my face as I started laughing when she muttered, “Bastard.”

Suddenly, we heard Lane bounding down the stairs. He handed his mother a
small container of ice cream. “I couldn’t find any pork chop. Will this do?”

“I doubt it,” she laughed. “It might melt all over Casey.” She stood, took my
hand and pulled me to my feet. “Let’s go upstairs to the medicine cabinet.”
When she released my hand, Lane grabbed it and held it as we headed toward
the stairs.

I hate to admit it, but it felt good to have Karen tend to my injuries. It was like
my own mother did when I was younger. As I sat on the toilet seat in the main
bath, I closed my eyes as she gingerly applied a sweet smelling salve to my face.

I opened my eyes when Lane started giggling. “You’re making him look like a
clown, Mommy!” He held his stomach and roared with laughter.

“He does not,” smiled Karen. I rose and stood before the mirror. I started
laughing as I looked at the white cream she had smeared all over my face.

“I do look like a clown,” I laughed.

“It will take the swelling down,” she said as she rubbed some more on my cheek.
She then looked up at a clock on the wall. “I had better get dinner started.”

I asked, “Would you like me to help?”

“No, Dear,” she replied. “Why don’t you and Lane go down to the family room
and watch television until I call you.”

“Okay, Mommy,” responded Lane cheerfully. He grabbed my hand and said, “We
can watch SpongeBob SquarePants.”

I looked at Karen and smiled, “Wonderful.” She playfully hit me on my butt as
we exited the bathroom.

After an hour of SpongeBob SquarePants, I was ready to jump up from the
sofa and start screaming. Lane, however, enjoyed it tremendously. He was
having a good time as he sat on the sofa beside me. As I watched him, I
realized just how neglected his life must have been before I arrived. Except for
Karen, I doubt anyone else in the house paid any attention to him. He seemed
to thrive on the brotherly bond we were forming.

The only problem for me, though, was if someday I decided to leave, it would be
more difficult. I hated to admit it, but I needed Lane’s attention as much as he
needed mine. He was the family I had been missing for the past five years.

“Mmmm,” said Lane as the smell of dinner began to waft downstairs. “Mommy’s
fixing fried chicken.”

“It does smell good,” I replied. Just then, we heard someone stomping down the
stairs into the family room. I turned when my father spoke harshly.

“Casey!” he said angrily. “I need to have a word with you.” He stepped in front
of me and looked down at my face. “My God, Karen was right!” He looked over
at Lane. “Skipper, go upstairs to your room until dinner.”

Lane rose and looked down sadly at me. He could tell by my father’s voice that
something was wrong. He started to say something, but my father said
adamantly, “Go now, Skipper.”

After he left the room, I watched as my father paced around the room in front
of me. Finally, he stopped and said, “Your mother warned me something like this
would happen.”

I jumped to my feet, stood defiantly before him and shouted, “You leave her out
of this! I knew she had turned you against me.” I picked up a pillow on the sofa
and threw it across the room. It hit a picture on the wall that crashed to the
floor and shattered.

“You’re just like her!” I screamed. “You won’t even give me a chance to prove

“Prove what?” he asked sarcastically. “That you can get kicked out of school just
like you did back home.”

I tried to hold back tears as I shouted, “I don’t have a goddamn home
anymore.” He stared angrily at me, turned and began pacing around the room.
As I watched him, anger boiled up inside me.

“Fuck this shit!” I spat. “I don’t need you or anyone else.”

When I turned to leave, he shouted, “Don’t you walk out on me! We’re not
done here!”

I responded angrily, “Oh, yes we are!” I turned and stormed up the stairs.
Karen attempted to stop me, but I brushed past her and left through the back
kitchen door. I hurried around the house and started down the sidewalk.

I turned when I heard the front door open. I assumed it was my father coming
to confront me again. It was Lane. He was hurriedly putting on a light jacket as
he ran up to me. He didn’t say a word. He simply grabbed my hand and held it
as I walked down the sidewalk from my father’s house.

A block away, we passed Mr. Goodwin’s house. He was trimming bushes in the
front yard. “Wait here,” I instructed Lane as I walked away and confronted the
short, stout man who appeared to be in his 60’s.

He looked at me suspiciously, and then looked behind me at Lane. “What you
want, Boy?”

“Listen, you sick, perverted bastard!” I shouted. He turned off his trimmer and
took a few steps backwards.

I turned and pointed toward Lane. “If you ever put your fucking hands on him
again,” I yelled, “I’ll take that trimmer and hack your nuts off!”

“I..I...don’t know what you’re talking about,” he stammered nervously.

“Fuck you!” I shouted. “You know goddamn well what I’m talking about!” I
pointed my finger at him and waved it. “You lure young boys into your house
and then you try to seduce them.”

Before he had a chance to respond, his wife opened the front door and peered
outside. When she saw me standing angrily before her husband, she asked,
“George, is everything all right?”

He looked pleadingly at me, and then he turned and said, “Yes, Dear. You go
back inside. I’m okay.”

“You’re a sick, mother fucker,” I spat. “You’re married and trying to mess with
young boys.”

“You’ve got it wrong,” he tried to convince me. “Skipper must have lied to you.”

I grabbed him by the collar and looked angrily into his face. “He didn’t lie, you
sick bastard.” I shoved him back, and he stumbled and fell to the ground.
“Touch him again and you’ll regret it!”

I turned and walked away. Lane looked astonished as I put my arm around his
shoulder and pressed him into my body. “Come on, Little Brother.” He skipped
beside me as we continued down the street.

We walked to a Dairy Queen I had noticed on our way to school earlier. Lane got
excited when we headed toward it. “Oh, boy!” he squealed. “I want a Dilly Bar!”

Luckily, I still had a few dollars left over after giving Shade most of my money on
Saturday. I walked up to the counter and ordered two Dilly Bars. Lane and I
then walked out and sat at a table outside.

We sat quietly for a few minutes. I smiled as I watched Lane devour the ice
cream bar. When he was done, he looked worriedly at me and asked, “Are you
okay, Casey?”

“Why wouldn’t I be okay?”

“You got in a big fight with Randy, and then you wanted to hurt Mr. Goodwin
because of what he did to me,” he replied. He looked at my swollen eye, “Is it
because what Mike did to you?”

I didn’t know how to respond. Lane was making an effort to try to understand
what was going on in my life. There was no way I could explain it to him, when I
didn’t even know myself how I was feeling.

I smiled slightly and said, “Sometimes life gets a little complicated.”
He nodded his head, and I reached out and squeezed his arm. “I’ll be okay,
though. I promise. Okay?”

Tears started to well up in his eyes. “You just don’t seem happy.” he wiped
away a tear that fell down his cheek. “I want you to be happy, Casey.” He
reached out and I held him in my arms.

“I’ll be happy,” I assured him as tears filled my eyes. “Someday I’ll hear the birds
singing again.”

He leaned back, looked into my eyes and smiled. “I like hearing the birds sing.”

“I do too,” I replied as I kissed him on his forehead. “Let’s go home.” He held
my hand and skipped beside me as we headed back down the sidewalk.

When we returned to my father’s house, there was a small Mazda parked in the
driveway. Lane and I headed around the house to the back door. We walked
through the kitchen and down the steps toward the family room. I was trying to
get to my room before my father saw me.

However, as soon as we descended the stairs, I saw my father sitting on the
sofa. He was talking quietly to Coach Wentworth. They stopped and turned
when Lane and I entered the room.

“Skipper,” ordered my father. “Go upstairs to your room.”

I put my hand on Lane’s shoulder. “His name isn’t Skipper,” I informed him
adamantly. “It’s Lane.”

I thought my father would blow up once again and start shouting, but he didn’t.
Instead, he said with a very calm voice, “Lane. Go to your room, please.”

Lane looked up at me. I patted him on his back and nodded. He smiled, skipped
across the room and bounded up the stairs. When he was gone, my father
asked me politely if I would have a seat.

I crossed my arms defiantly and responded, “I’d rather not. I have nothing to
say to you.”

Coach Wentworth rose off the sofa and approached me. He winced when he saw
the bruising on my face and my swollen eye. “Casey, I came here tonight to talk
about what happened in gym.”

“What’s to talk about?” I asked sarcastically. “I got the shit beat out of me,” I
said angrily as I pointed towards my father. Tears started to well up in my eyes.
“Does he give a damn what happened? He’s just like my mother. They always
blame me without hearing my side of the story.”

I didn’t want to cry, but I couldn’t help it. They were tears of anger, more than
tears of sadness. “You know what?” I cried as I wiped tears away from my eyes.
“Fuck it.” I looked over at my father. “I don’t need you. I didn’t want to come
here, but Mom gave me no choice. She packed my bags and had them in the car
before I even knew what was happening.”

I wiped more tears away and said sorrowfully, “You’re not my father anymore. I
would say I hate you, but I don’t know you well enough to even say that.”

I turned and rushed into my room. I slammed the door, fell onto the bed, and
wept. It was the first time since I was about eight that I could remember crying.
I had always been the tough kid, and I kept my emotions inside me.
Occasionally, I would explode, like tonight. But I never let my emotions get the
best of me. Tonight, however, I had lost.

A few minutes later, someone entered the room and sat down gently on the
side of the bed. “It’s going to be all right, Casey,” said Wentworth soothingly.

I turned on my back, looked up at him and started laughing. “What are you?
Some fucking psychic? You think just because you’re a successful baseball
coach, you have all the answers.”

“That’s not fair, Casey,” he responded. “I just want to help you.”

“Yeah, right,” I replied sarcastically as I turned on my side away from him. “All
you care about is winning ball games.”

He put his hand on my shoulder, but I jerked away to let him know I didn’t want
him touching me. “I’ve helped a lot of boys like you.”

I rolled over, sat up and stared into his face. “And what’s in it for you? Huh? Do
you get some pin at the end of the day for being a nice guy?”

He begged, “Please. Give me a chance, Casey.”

“I gave you a chance,” I replied angrily. I touched the side of my face. “Look
what happened to me.”

“I’ve had a talk with Mike,” he said quickly. “He’s sorry about what happened.”

I started laughing. “You had a talk with him? Gee whiz. Thanks. He beats the
fucking shit out of me, and you have a talk with him?”

“Mike has a lot of problems,” he started to explain.

I quickly interrupted. “Yeah, Coach. I’m sure he does.” I purposefully looked
down at his crotch. “And I’m sure he helps you with your problems, too.”

His face reddened with angry as he stared at me. “What are you trying to say?”

I rose from the bed and stared down at him. “Oh, come off it, Coach. Mike beats
the shit out of me, and you have a talk with him?”

He replied, “It’s complicated. I can’t have him suspended.”

I bent down and stared angrily into his face. “I bet you can’t. Are you afraid he’ll
tell your dirty little secrets?”  

He stood and balled his fist. “You fucker!”

I stepped back and started laughing. “Go ahead. Hit me. You might as well finish
what Mike started.”

It was hard to read his expression. It was a mix of anger, embarrassment and
confusion. We stood toe to toe, and eye to eye. He blinked first, turned and left
the room.

I fell back on the bed and soon went to sleep. Sometime in the night, Lane came
down and snuggled against me. I awoke in the morning with my arm around him.

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